I’ve always enjoyed writing down my thoughts and whenever I certainly felt something so strong that I just couldn’t bear I choose to write it down, and specially when its you, Hey where do i begin it was a strange summer of 2021 where people are still currently adjusting in the Covid, Out of nowhere I stumble across your facebook page and from then on, I couldn’t help it but let myself get into those feelings again, everything is new and fresh, something that I know I will be so damn happy, One thing I notice about myself is that whenever I liked something I would always put a extra effort for it, but sooner I found myself just gazing around and realized that I don’t like it anymore, Well for you I would be defensive but over the time I guess I am proving myself right again this time, well at first it is so happy, calming, relaxing and just chill but over the time and the acts that you do, its just giving me more reason that you don’t find me interesting, and I need to program myself that its the reality, I was not born in a alternate universe, well in fact I am used to this kind of scenario where I found someone so interesting but the other way around happens, Life is too short to just kept thinking that If I was her or If I am just like that it would be much easier, But in those moments remember this you are exactly what God created you, I know its easier said than done but thats the reality we lived in. I have so many things to say to you but I just want to sumarise it and here you
Hey you, your not typical boy next door,you already caught me off guard the first time i saw your facebook account pop up, and i knew from that moment it would hit differently this time and surely it does. this time its more complex in a way that I’ve got the whole company family cheering for me, it makes me kilig because they made me like we are all in this together, every notice/uploads that you make everyone is apart of it, to make it short, it is broadcast, I even printed photos of yours and polaroids which is very cute btw, I even stick your photos on the back of my laptop and insert the polaroids on the back of my phone, let’s just say that I’m literally obsessed with you and you are my favorite viewer, I will not forget the lunch date we had, those sips of coffee,tiktoking, playing mobile games and just a memorable day at the perfect cold breze weather location,ahhhh soooo nostalgic, when things got tough I would always go back to you and would always choose to choose you but thats not the reality, my most excited self, and one foot forward ended up hurting myself, those hello’s turns to inbox turns to seen messages, and to be straight forward your not interested at all, I could distinguish your actions I know your just to shy to reject me,But don’t worry I already anticipated this situation I am used to this. but to end this ,every now and then when i think of you, I smile and you sprinkle those happiness that you gave me still, but not that happiness that is hopeful but happiness of moving forward towards the reality. The day i meet you is the day i set my heart free.
Azlen 